Thursday, October 25, 2012

Seasons

The last, slow moving moth of the season landed on my glasses frame tonight
It reminded me of the first time we kissed
     unsucessfully hiding from the spring Texas rain
You tasted of cigarettes,
I wanted to keep your lips forever----
     the rain kept the moths away

Uncountable, pristine, exquisite moments later
I nearly verbalized recently discovered emotions during a trans-atlantic phone call
Now, I am studying the topography of your life on Google maps
Geography may be the death of this

Inside my heart
Like thousands of moths
Captured for a moment in floodlights
Hopeful uncertainty
Captured for a moment in possiblity 

Friday, August 24, 2012

Albania; Comparisons are Odious

I was sitting in my hotel room in Cotulla, TX, attempting to nap after working nearly 24 hours straight when my boss called me on my personal phone, my first thought, "uh-oh, what now?!" I answered the phone with a cautious "hello" and learned that I would be leaving for Albania (like the country in Europe?) for a core handling job. I flew home from Texas, was in Colorado for literally 14 hours and then began the 24 hour journey here; Denver to Washington Dulles, Dulles to Vienna, Vienna to Tirana. Whew! I had never been to Europe and I must say I prefer traveling south, the jet lag killed me!

It was nearly one year ago exactly that I first traveled out of the U.S. to Argentina and I am reminded daily that comparisons are odious, but I cannot stop making them. When I started this job someone told me "enjoy visiting all the assholes of America/the world." I laughed them off, and still do. But I think what they were really trying to tell me was that no matter where you go in the world, oilfield towns all bear a startling resemblance to one another. The town of Fier, Albania where we are currently working bears an uncanny resemblance to the town of Neuquen in Argentina where I spent a month and a half this winter. Comparisons are odious.

Albanian is a very foreign language for me. It is not a romance language so my rudimentary understanding of Spanish is no help at all! So far the only word I can remember how to say is "thank you" and that took about 3 days of practice to master! Italian functions pretty well as a second language and I am quickly figuring out what phrases/words are similar in Italian and Spanish. And there are quite a few people who speak a little English. I am struck, here, with the realization that English is a lazy, sloppy, un-beautiful language. We have no accents on syllables and the structure of our sentences is so bizarre. However, I am slowly mastering the art of non verbal communication and learning to love the challenge of communicating with only a few words in common. El mundo es muy linda; the world is so beautiful.

Comparisons are odious; the culture here is saturated with age and history, wrapped in technology, tetering between communism and capitalism, at the same time vibrant and muted; comparisons are odious. We visited the ancient ruins of Apollonia and I saw my first olive trees and my first really old artifacts and structures. I found myself wandering through an orthodox monastery, realizing just how old Europe is. I think we get brainwashed in the U.S. (and probably other countries as well) with the importance of our own history. But we are such a young country. Wandering these ruins, I was saturated with the age of the country, the multiple cultures and occupations, the ancient/new history of it all. It was an eye opening experience I struggle to put into words.

We spent yesterday at the beach in Vlore, on the Adriatic Sea. It was one of those days where I wanted to pinch myself repeatedly because it seemed too beautiful to be reality. The beach was a little cove surrounded by limestone cliffs dropping into crystal clear water. We climbed and jumped off of cliffs, swam around in the calm water and I explored the geology a little. One of the first papers I ever wrote about geology was about the tufa towers at Mono Lake in California. I remember reading that in Greece and other countries tufa was a common building material. On our first night here we walked into an underground restaurant with walls made entirely of tufa, I was SO excited. Swimming in the Adriatic there were fresh water springs bubbling up, deliciously cold, and many meters below my feet, living tufa being formed. In that moment I was first a geologist, second everything else!

More to come later. Here are a few pictures!

Love,

Pinky






Saturday, July 28, 2012

Taste

Once, we were backyard neighbors with a man who had a cat named Cat
In the winter, when the shrubs were all sticks,
we would laugh as we watched Cat stalk man from the roof
The man wandering his yard calling,
"Cat...Cat...Cat...Cat..."
It was infinitely amusing                                                                                                                                      

I found myself recalling that duo and wanting to laugh
as your too eager lips traveled over my sun drenched collarbone
I kissed you then, instead of laughing
You tasted of my sweat; it tasted like summer

There have been moments, periods of time,
when I have forgotten the feel of your fingers on my skin
But even in my dreams, in my deepest sleep,
I remember and yearn for your kisses
In my dreams your kisses always taste like ice cream.

Sizzling Forecast

In lava topped mesas
baked ocher in summer's heat
I see your eyes

The heat here is comforting, reassuring
I embody my mother
Stride from room to room
Opening windows following afternoon showers
The house becomes cool

It is with mundane tasks
  the small monotony of folding clothes
That I notice the passage of time
  faded lettering on college t-shirts reminds me,
I will never see him again

In the blazing, glaring, sizzling mid-July sun
I search for adjectives
Peach juice running down my face
In this heat, my fingers are instantly sticky

Monday, April 30, 2012

6 weeks in south Texas, Spring 2012


6 weeks in south Texas, Spring 2012
Day 33
I now measure time
In daily toothpaste usage
my teeth are quite clean

Day 34
My tongue in your cheek
Irony is all I feel
for Mesquite blossoms

Day 35
X-Mas eve ‘02
Ziggy Stardust playing loud
John was still alive

Day 37
Cancer is pretty
Iridescent death glimmers
My pockets are lined


 Home
I chased the sunset
West. Plain to valley to peaks.
Possibilities.  

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Land of Many Lands

A land of diesel fumes and gas flares
Cactus and longhorns
Beauty as unexpected as the occasional liberal
Live Oaks in the east 
Limestone mesas to the west
Big guns and bigger egos encompassing vast stretches of mesquite
Droughts so consuming they leave cactus gasping for water,
until they drown in the next monsoon
Wildflowers blooming under border patrol trucks
Derricks rise and fall beside vast roadways nearing extinction
Swim through humidity
Gasp in heat

    Texas 2012

Sunday, January 29, 2012

(In) Memories

I
On the night I learned he had died I collapsed in grief; later opened the bottle of Malbec Brad brought from Argentina; turned 20 the next day.
Each birthday since, preceded by the day of his death.
I am a quarter century old. He is five years dead.
Inspired: my own world explorations began with Malbec at the source.

II
Fleeting memories stay with me:
When I was 8 you gave me a guitar; Muggy summer visits spent catching fireflies in Mason jars while you sang of sealing wax and other fancy stuff
Distance swimming in a great lake; I learned to snorkel with guppies on sandbars inspired by tall tales of sea urchins and shifting tides. Years later, snorkeling in a tropical ocean I saw my first sea urchin and was instantly transported backwards in time.

III
Grief is isolating even when it is necessary; grief is isolating

Memories inspire
even when they are painful

memory is sweet
no matter how fleeting

memory is sweet